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Romanticizing ‘Moving Out of Town’   Leave a comment

Just a small town girl, living in a lonely world
She took the midnight train going anywhere
Just a city boy, born and raised in South Detroit
He took the midnight train going anywhere
~ Journey – Don’t Stop Believin’

Just about anyone I know has either moved out of their town or state for a better life or planning/dreaming of moving out of town. Heck, my family and I left the Philippines for the US in the 90s. My mom was offered a job and it was our ticket way out of our previous predicament. She lucked out with her choices, worked hard to provide for us siblings. We benefited a lot and will forever be thankful for it. Since I came here at a young age, this is now my hometown.

I have friends who left and friends who plan or dream of leaving. They don’t like their hometown. Not sure if it’s the town/state they are distancing from. Maybe it’s a family thing. Maybe it’s both. They want to leave town because it’s bad, no opportunities, and to be away from bad blood (family, friends, etc.). It has never dawned on me wanting to leave my hometown. I don’t hate it. I have every opportunity available to me. It’s not Minnesota or upstate New York cold. It’s no Southern hot, either. The Goldilocks zone. I sometimes think of living in another state up north or the West Coast. They’re more musings than some prime desire to leave. It tends to be some sort of rite of passage in American culture, to spread your wings and fly. It’s an adventurous and exciting premise completely devoid of responsibilities we face on a daily basis.

For others, they have every reason to leave their hometown.

For me, for now, for the foreseeable future, I’m good.

I’m done.



Posted November 11, 2017 by StupidSystemus in Musings, Uncategorized

WTF Fridays – Show Me the Money (Jerry’s Theme)   Leave a comment

Posted February 17, 2017 by StupidSystemus in Uncategorized

I Don’t Have Friends…   2 comments

… I just know people.

I’m done.

Posted December 3, 2016 by StupidSystemus in Uncategorized

When A Person Dies   Leave a comment

With the night winding down and checking on Facebook, I saw the trending story of Christina Grimmie shot while signing autographs after her concert in Florida. Her brother tackled the shooter. The shooter shot himself moments after. Part of me is a little desensitized to such news. Unfazed, I browsed away online. A few hours later, the Facebook page of our local radio station broke the news for me that the 22-year-old singer passed away. That’s when I paused and took a moment to reflect on what just happened.

She is considered a pioneer on YouTube as one of the early adopters using the platform to entertain viewers and fans. She competed on The Voice in 2014. Adam Levine signed her to his label despite placing third in the competition. She just released her new album in February this year. I watched a few snippets of her video vlogs and songs. Such talent at such a young age.

I didn’t follow her on YouTube or watched The Voice as much as my mom. Reading all the nice things she’s done over the years places me in sort of a rut. Was I better off not knowing about her? I wish I knew more of her and all the kindness and wonderful things she shared with the world and her fans before this tragedy.

I’m praying for her friends and family.



Posted June 11, 2016 by StupidSystemus in Uncategorized

Facebook Anxiety   3 comments

I’m not the only one who gets anxious about adding people on Facebook, am I?

I overthink everything. Rationally, I know people have reasons for not accepting friend requests. I accept that. But the thought is overwhelming. I respect people’s privacy too much that I stopped adding people altogether. People add me and I accept. And others probably feel the same way.

It’s possible there’s someone whom I would add and they would add me, but both of us feel the same way and overthink things. So we acknowledge each other’s existence and don’t want to overstep like the worst game of courteous chicken.

I’m done.

Posted June 5, 2016 by StupidSystemus in Musings, Uncategorized

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