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Triggered Memory   Leave a comment

The story about the British lady having rocks thrown at her by a Nepalese tea shop lady for 50/150 rupees black tea dispute triggered an old memory I had when I was in Senior kindergarten (6 years old) in 1990. It’s all I’m thinking about now and I can’t sleep, so I might as well write them down while it’s still vivid.

It was after school in the Philippines in the afternoon and our nanny picked us up. Before heading home, I would stop by the vendors outside the school and buy candy or other stuff with my allowance. I had saved up enough coins from my allowances to have a 10 Philippine Peso bill that I exchanged with my mom. I bought a snack worth 2.50 and expected a 7.50 change. The lady vendor gave me 2.50 as change. I told her I gave her 10.00, but she just looked at me and said I gave her 5.00, I ran to my nanny and told her what happened. One of the school security guard got involved, but there was no proof. The vendor pocketed my money. Everyone just assumed I made a mistake, gave the lady 5.00 instead of 10.00. All these adults looking at me thinking I was lying. I felt so humiliated and cried.

That was probably the first instance I had my trust in people broken. Looking back at it now, several mannerisms, how I act, attitudes, they can probably be traced back to that incident.

I avoided buying from that vendor for the 6 years onward I went to school. If I did, I made sure that lady wasn’t attending their table. I told my younger sister to be careful when buying from them and avoid paying bills higher than a 5.00 (the lowest circulated bill in the Philippines at the time). Over the years I learned that the security guard that got involved is their family (the vendor lady’s husband). So even if there was proof that time, there’s probably nothing we could have done. They also don’t have set prices.

One time in 3rd grade, the security guard was off-duty without his uniform and tending the sales at their vending site (maybe he was no longer a security guard, but I didn’t care). They were frozen chocolate milk bars and I bought it for 2.50. I told my younger sister, now in 2nd grade, that they were selling it for that amount. When she went to the vendor, the guy increased the price and said it was 2.75 when I just bought minutes earlier. She paid more than me.

Like seriously, FUCK!! Over the years, I even convinced myself to let it go because they are poor and trying to make ends meet and would pull that shit. So I started buying from them again in 4th grade even if the lady was tending the sales, but still avoided her as much as possible or paying over bills higher than 5.00.

Then the one time in 6th grade I stopped caring for a second and paid the lady a 20.00 bill for an item, expecting over 15.00 in change, that same lady short-changes me, hands me a 5.00 and some change. In my mind I was like THIS AGAIN????

I looked at her with an annoyed face and said “I gave you 20.”

She said “no, it was 10.”

I just kept staring at her. She sighed briefly, pulled out a 10.00 from her fanny pack, and handed it to me. No look of remorse whatsoever. So what changed? I got older. I got taller than her. I wasn’t having it. I don’t think she even remembers me, but I wasn’t a tiny 6 year old anymore that she could easily take advantage of. That was the last time I bought something from that vendor.

I don’t really know where I’m going with this. If there’s a moral to my story, when people show you who they are, believe them.

I’m done.


Posted September 21, 2017 by StupidSystemus in Personal

My Injuries Come In Twos   Leave a comment

Last Friday, I lost my footing going up the stairs with my left foot. I caught myself with my right arm on the railing and the angle dislocated my shoulder again. It’s been two years since the last episode, so this was extra painful. I reduced it by lifting my right arm with my left over my head and pulled. It’s pain that makes you feel like fainting (tingling all over, vision gets blurry on and off like blood is rushing out of your head). Shoulder is fine now.

Come Monday morning, I woke up with pain on my left big toe. It was bearable on my way to work. It started to get painful when I got out of my car, heading to work. It feels like I sprained my big toe. I don’t remember hitting it yesterday or this morning. It’s possible it got hyperextended when I lost my footing on Friday and it just got worse for the last three days. Maybe I hit it this morning and just forgot because I just woke up.

Went to urgent care after work. They took X-rays. No fracture so that’s good. Physician couldn’t pinpoint the exact cause. She would test for gout, but they don’t do that at urgent care. Assuming it’s a sprain or possible turf toe, I just need to ice it for 15-20 minutes several times a day and keep it immobilized as much as I can. Physician also prescribed me Ultram for the pain cause I’m allergic to Advil and any aspirin. If the swelling is not going away and it’s red, it’s an ER issue for possible infection.

I’m getting old.

I’m done.

Posted August 28, 2017 by StupidSystemus in Personal

Royal Caribbean Cruise 2017   Leave a comment

Been so busy with work. I finally had time to edit them.

My family went on a Royal Caribbean cruise back in March-April to celebrate the milestone April birthdays.

The first two days were spent at sea on our way to Labadee, Haiti.
We went to Labadee, Haiti (day 3) and Falmouth and Ocho Rios Jamaica (day 4).
I didn’t go on any excursion on day 6 so I just took videos from events on the ship.

I’m done.

RE: Where Do You See Yourself in Five Years?   Leave a comment

Got the job. I’m now a project manager 🙂

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Posted May 13, 2017 by StupidSystemus in Personal

Where Do You See Yourself in Five Years?   2 comments

This is a question that came up a lot in my job interviews over the past 8 years. Starting off after college, I didn’t really know what I see myself doing professionally. Eight years later and I still don’t know. But now I have an idea. I’ve accumulated enough work experience on multiple roles from five different jobs.

Earlier this year, two managers from my team of 50+ members approached me and had the silly idea to have me lead a project for our client. It’s a short term project which our company had never done before and they figured I was the right fit for this task. It also doubled as a test run for what I can do with it. They’ve been throwing around the idea of giving me one of our existing programs as a team lead.

The short term project just ended. I recently completed my analysis and sent it to my managers for review before sending it to the client. Impressed by my post analysis of the project, our head project manager shopped around my PowerPoint presentation to our company’s big shots and our client lead, who said “job well job.” I’m humbled by all this praise, giving a boost to my ego.

I just had my interview with one of our managers and former team lead for a project management position. Apparently I’m the only one qualified among those who sent their application. Other than formalities and signed documents, I think the position is all but mine.

Hoping for the best.

I’m done.

Posted April 20, 2017 by StupidSystemus in Musings, Personal