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Falling Asleep   Leave a comment

I wrote a short post on Facebook a few months ago, stating “I don’t sleep anymore. I just take really long naps.” I was half-joking, but it’s been like they for a while now.

It’s hard to get a good night’s sleep. I’m lucky if I can get uninterrupted 7 hours. Only when I’m really tired and several consecutive days of less than five-3 hour of sleep and I’ll be knocked out by the fifth day or so.

Sometimes my sleep schedule shifts and I find myself drifting to dreamland before 9pm. But then I wake up at midnight or so and can’t fall back asleep. I just end up with less sleep either way for work the following morning.

We were not meant to sleep for 8 hours straight. We sleep for 4, more or less. Wake up and do stuff. Go back to sleep for more and then wake up. That’s probably where naps came from when we were kids: a shortened sleep-cycle. Unfortunately, that doesn’t work for the modern waking world.

I’m done.

Posted November 8, 2019 by StupidSystemus in Personal

That Time I Thought I Had Liver Damage   Leave a comment

When I was sick two weekends ago, I was awake for more than a day. I couldn’t sleep. I was fighting a fever and infection from sinusitis. To keep my fever down, I was taking Tylenol Extra Strength. I noticed I was sweating a lot whenever I took Tylenol so I looked online for symptoms of excessive sweating. I wasn’t reading things carefully and self-diagnosed myself with liver damage. One of the symptoms of liver damage was dehydration and excessive sweating. I was so sure that I had liver damage or failure that I was getting ready to go to the emergency room as they instructed online. I was so worried that something could happen to me and somewhat scared, but I was also so numb to it that I was calm and collected like I was ready to face whatever will happen.

Before I left the house, I grounded myself to reality and made sure I’m not just overthinking it. Turns out it’s one of the side effects of taking Tylenol. Because I was taking Extra Strength, the effects are amplified. Tylenol dilates your blood vessels and makes you sweat. That helps with reducing your fever. So I calmed myself down, went to get food, and went back home and slept it off. By Sunday/Monday my fever was down. And I could sleep better.

It’s one of the reasons why I don’t use Tylenol as much, even though it’s really effective. I can’t take aspirin or ibuprofen because I’m allergic. I once took Advil, which contains one of those ingredients and my eyes were swelled up. Advil knocked me out, for sure. I was in middle school I think and usually I do my homework in the family room couch back then. I fell asleep and my mom woke me up. My eyes were swollen. That’s when we determined I’m allergic to Advil, and by extension aspirin/ibuprofen. I actually informed my former primary physician through my mom’s medical insurance about what happened and she said I might have an allergy to ibuprofen.

I haven’t really been properly tested for allergies. I just know that I itch when I take anything stronger than Tylenol (so Aleve is a no go as well). I get really itchy when I eat a lot of crabs, and by extension lobster and crayfish, but not shrimp for some reason. Sometimes I eat crabs and I feel a slight tingle, but I can control myself not to scratch the itch. It probably has something to do with how fresh and how crab is cooked (steamed vs. boiled).

I’m done.

Posted October 20, 2019 by StupidSystemus in Personal

Destress   Leave a comment

My body was fighting an acute sinusitis just a few days ago. It started to get worse some time last weekend. I’ve probably had it for a while now and it recently just got worse. Went to urgent care after work and the doctor prescribed me antibiotics. It was slightly stronger than regular amoxicillin and fights all kinds of bacteria to make sure it also gets the more resistant ones. Side effects include being drowsy even when you’re well-rested. I was also fighting a fever and trying to get better overall, so it was like hell.

I’m feeling better now. Had lunch with my sister on Saturday and watched Ad Astra. It was my second time watching the movie and it’s just as good as the first time. It’s definitely not what you’d expect in a movie with it’s subject matter and all, but the visuals were really nice. Went around the mall and did some shopping. Bought a Cardigan. Drove back closer to home and went to the other mall. Bought a book. Left the mall and bought a case of bottled water for my car. Went grocery shopping. Bought food. Went home and watched Saturday Night Live. Watched some anime. Then fell asleep.

Woke up on Sunday. I wasn’t sick or anything, but I just didn’t feel like doing anything. I had plans to leave the house and do something, but I just didn’t feel like it. I did too many things on Saturday and I guess I just felt drained from it. So I just stayed inside the house doing nothing, mostly. I browse the Internet. Watch some videos. Got several naps.

I used to think that days like these are days wasted. Not anymore. Sometimes you just need some personal time to be left alone. To do nothing. To no talk to anyone. To destress. And it’s fine. You don’t want to be in a situation where you keep pushing yourself when you just need a ‘timeout’ or reset and wind up exploding when you can’t take it anymore. Learn to enjoy the quiet times. Embrace the silence. You actually do your best after it.

I’m done.

Posted October 13, 2019 by StupidSystemus in Personal

Death Anniversaries   Leave a comment

I don’t know if American culture practices death anniversaries. I’m from the Philippines so it usually involves gatherings and mass held at the cemetery where your love one is interred. It’s my father’s fifth death anniversary today. Each year I get less sad about it. I’m not in the Philippines to make the same celebration so I just keep him in my thoughts and pray for him.

I’m done.

Posted September 15, 2019 by StupidSystemus in Personal

Dehydration   1 comment

It’s no joke. I’m trying to stay hydrated but the simplest task make me sweat buckets. With everything hurting, just vacuuming our carpet hurts. I took fever reducers and it’s what’s causing me to sweat profusely. Good for my fever, but I got to stay hydrated.

When I was bedridden yesterday and went out to get food, I bought a poke ball with noodled-cucumber, radish, ahi tuna and an immunity elixir of dark cocoa and coconut milk. Literally two hours later, I couldn’t hold it in and went number two.

I still felt hungry so I bought Chipotle. I ate two meals in 3 hours and my body is either absorbing or voiding what I just ate.

I kept waking up from sleep last night. I had to bring cold compress for my cheeks and forehead and then on my pits and behind my knees.

From my previous post, the likely culprit is the plant-based protein powder I’ve introduced in my diet. I also want to point out that I’ve lost 20 pounds in two months and kept the weight off for a month now. I should be ecstatic for getting healthy, but that’s a lot of weight to lose in a short amount of time. So I’m adding that to one of the factors affecting me right now. I’m seeing my doctor if my symptoms don’t improve.

I’m done.

Posted August 25, 2019 by StupidSystemus in Personal