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Where Do You See Yourself in Five Years?   2 comments

This is a question that came up a lot in my job interviews over the past 8 years. Starting off after college, I didn’t really know what I see myself doing professionally. Eight years later and I still don’t know. But now I have an idea. I’ve accumulated enough work experience on multiple roles from five different jobs.

Earlier this year, two managers from my team of 50+ members approached me and had the silly idea to have me lead a project for our client. It’s a short term project which our company had never done before and they figured I was the right fit for this task. It also doubled as a test run for what I can do with it. They’ve been throwing around the idea of giving me one of our existing programs as a team lead.

The short term project just ended. I recently completed my analysis and sent it to my managers for review before sending it to the client. Impressed by my post analysis of the project, our head project manager shopped around my PowerPoint presentation to our company’s big shots and our client lead, who said “job well job.” I’m humbled by all this praise, giving a boost to my ego.

I just had my interview with one of our managers and former team lead for a project management position. Apparently I’m the only one qualified among those who sent their application. Other than formalities and signed documents, I think the position is all but mine.

Hoping for the best.

I’m done.

Posted April 20, 2017 by StupidSystemus in Musings, Personal

The Proposal   1 comment

A couple of years ago, one night, I was about to propose to my girlfriend when my roommate Joseph barged into the room out of nowhere, tripped and fell over, breaking a glass table with his face. Totally ruined the mood. Now, I didn’t know Joseph THAT well, don’t even remember where he was from, but let’s just say I put my plans on hold to help him through his injuries.

Joseph had gotten a big glass shard in his eye, making him completely blind in that eye. He was walking around with one of those cotton pads on his eye for a couple of months. Then suddenly, he disappeared, along with my girlfriend.

Apparently they’d bonded during the time after his injuries, and eloped together , left me behind without as much as a note. I tried to track them down, but never could.

In conclusion, if it hadn’t been for cotton eye Joe, I’d have been married a long time ago. Where did you come from, where did you go? Where did you come from, cotton eye Joe?













April Fools.


I’m done.

Posted April 1, 2017 by StupidSystemus in Musings

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Has A Sad   Leave a comment

A friend made several short Facebook posts last weekend. The last post said that they have been sad for 5 years.

It made me think about my own predicament. I’m not in a happy place myself, going about my day on auto-pilot. Since my dad’s passing, I was never the same. I’m aware of it at least.

Work occupies my time. Video games, making videos, trolling Facebook and online, watching movies and TV shows, siblings and parents…they keep me centered, but I’m still not my usual self. It’s possible my ideal self no longer exists and I’m just reminiscing on this romanticized self. I’m still capable of finding happiness in the little things.

I’m constantly engaged and have my mind stimulated. Being idle is just the recipe for the existential dread. And it always comes back like.

Whenever I think about my dad, I get emotional. The longer I mull it over and think about my regrets and how I should have acted, the harder it is to hold back tears. Sometimes I wonder why I keep rehashing these sad thoughts. Besides old photos and belongings, the pain is the only thing from him I have left.

I’m done.

Posted October 18, 2016 by StupidSystemus in Musings, Personal

Gene Wilder / Condescending Wonka   Leave a comment


There’s no earthly way of knowing
Which direction we are going
There’s no knowing where we’re rowing
Or which way the river’s flowing

– Willy Wonka (Gene Wilder)




Dear Internet N00bs,

Spoiler alert: Willy Wonka memes are not about Gene Wilder.

Willy Wonka memes will live much longer than your attention span, showing that you care. Your selective outrage over this “disrespect” of posting Condescending Wonka memes will be as short lived as the next clickbait/triggering thing you’ll be upset about and encounter online.


Guy Who Experienced 14.4K Modem Connection

I’m done.

Posted August 30, 2016 by StupidSystemus in Musings, Rant

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Summer Almost Done Musings   Leave a comment

It’s been awhile.

  • Otakon came and gone. Just like last year, I did not take as many photos. I attended the Fairy Tail Photoshoot, and that was the last Otakon related photos I took. I have yet to upload them.
  • I’m still under contract at work. Our project manager put a freeze on converting contractors for good reason (at least that’s what they say). A new statement of work is coming and there are new positions. If they hired contractors now, they won’t be eligible to apply for the new positions for 30 days (probably more) and those positions will be filled up. We’ll see.
  • I drove in the Capital Beltway today for the first time in 8 months. I do not miss it at all.
  • College friends are getting engaged, having kids, or getting married. I’ve seen the photos shared. I think part of me will always feel envious or that I missed out in the festivities and the gatherings. It probably would have been nice If I had a closer relationship with them. Then again, when I really think about it, factor in the logistics of these events and my overall personality and outlook on things, I’m relieved that I’m not going through all of it and putting up a face on a stressful event. Small doses.
  • I’ll probably treat my sister to dinner tonight.

I’m done.

Posted August 27, 2016 by StupidSystemus in Musings, Personal